March 07, 2003

unwritten

Dear J,

I went to see him last night. He's even better in person. Looks like Lenny Kravitz in Converse sneakers. Sounds the way warm honey tastes. Remember the first time I heard him? You made me listen to that CD in your car on the way to... well, now even I forget where. It made me miss you. It made me miss driving around, singing along to Dashboard Confessional, you taking the harmonies. Anyway, he played at the rock club where I first heard you play. And I saw your friend, D. She was playing, too. It made me want to call you to say, "Guess who I just ran into?" And that made me miss you a little bit, too.
I'll admit, it's been easier than I thought it would be -- to disconnect myself from you. But not last night. Last night it was lonely, sitting next to two girls who shared stories and inside jokes composed of nothing more than, "like that one time in Memphis..." We had those sorts of stories too, you and I; sentences we never even bothered to complete, jokes that meant nothing to anyone but us. I miss that. I'm sure I'll find that again with someone else; I always do. But until then, I'll miss that.

I miss you. But stay away.

Love,

H

Posted by This Fish at March 7, 2003 10:24 AM
Comments

:(

That's one of the suckiest parts about leaving people behind.

I first found a tape of JG in my college radio station. I think it was his debut album. I took it to Spain with me and another friend loved it and he used to play the guitar and I would sing them (and not suck too bad, either). My brother has his second(I think) album, but I've never heard it. I always wished that I had written "Hero in Me."

Posted by: Michael at March 7, 2003 11:13 AM

There's a specific line in Love Disappears that makes me wish I could have sat him down and made him a cup of hot cocoa and told him, "Darlin' someone else will."

Posted by: Fish at March 7, 2003 11:23 AM

I have a couple of "letters never sent" too. Maybe I'll post one soon.

check out this site. http://www.sothere.com/
To say what should have been said a long time ago. Or yesterday. It's a chance to take it back, or to finally say it out loud.

Posted by: hubs at March 7, 2003 11:58 AM

It sounds like you're doing good, and I'm glad.

Posted by: Mike at March 7, 2003 12:12 PM

i'm sending you warm, fuzzy vibes. it does sound like you're doing better, and i am glad too.

Posted by: windowsill wendy at March 7, 2003 12:36 PM

*kisses* dollface. Always.

Posted by: Ari at March 7, 2003 12:38 PM

nicely put and so very true.

time wounds, all heals...er

time heals all wounds.

Posted by: michelle at March 7, 2003 12:58 PM

Am glad that you seem to be doing so well, and maybe it's pms, but the note to j made me cry.

Posted by: sook at March 7, 2003 02:35 PM

God, how many times have I thought that about my Ex? So many inside jokes in all those years. Knowing what makes her laugh...

Sorry. Hang in there.

Posted by: Ric at March 7, 2003 03:53 PM

I can't think of anything to say. Just wanted to let you know I was moved. Wow, that really sounds corny. Oh well.

Posted by: Dang Olden at March 7, 2003 08:35 PM

Fish, can't his songs just hurt brutally? Sweet agony.
You're amazing, know that? I so have been hoping you'd get to where you're at. 'Someone else will'. Yes indeed (sorry, that's your line)

It made me cry too, Sook

Posted by: Erin at March 8, 2003 01:25 AM