Oh, god damn it!
Have been hoping it would not come to this... in fact, have doing everything possible to avoid it. And yet, stupid bitch that fate is, am in quite the pickle.
I really like Indie Rock Boy.
There. Said it. Now there's no taking it back. Sure, have always liked IRB... in am-v.-fond-of-spending-time-with-him sort of way, but
Was out for an after-lunch walk yesterday and spotted IRB on sidewalk just ahead. Went to call out, but then noticed his Attractively Shaped Female Companion. Months of flippant 'we're-just-buddies-that-sometimes-make-out' thoughts flew right out the window and wretched jealous thoughts set in.
Who was this Attractively Shaped Female Companion?
And where did she get those really great plaid pants? Focus, Fish! Sorry.
Is this the girl he mentioned having a couple dates with?
Why do I care?
DO I care?
Oh god... I DO.
FUCK.
Had to investigate.
H: Hey! I saw you right after I sent you that email... on the sidewalk outside of CVS, but you were with a chick, so I decided not to interrupt.
IRB: That wasn't a chick. That was {insert name of coworker here}. Interrupt away.
Felt somewhat relieved that ASF wasn't romantic interest, but do NOT feel relieved that yours truly went through good hour of panicky, fiendish jealousy. This is not good. No more making out in cabs. No, indeed.
Though, last week's Cab Capades were so v. butterflies-in-stomach good. *sigh*
Posted by This Fish at July 9, 2003 01:53 PMMay I ask why you desperately don't want to like this boy?
Posted by: dd at July 9, 2003 02:08 PMAin't jealousy grand, blech!
Posted by: iferlynn at July 9, 2003 02:18 PMI would perhaps suggest that more making out is in order, not less.
Posted by: Frankenstein at July 9, 2003 02:27 PMso girl fish have the same crazy jealous problems that human girls have. good to know.
Posted by: michelle at July 9, 2003 04:03 PMSounds ominous. And my knee's actin' up, I think a storm's a-comin'. But don't you worry, little missy, there's nothin' prettier than a good storm this time of year.
Posted by: Jay at July 9, 2003 06:23 PMOnce a boy becomes, or seems, unavailable, he becomes infinitely more desireable. Even against our better sense.
Posted by: Katherine at July 9, 2003 10:06 PMpoor girl
Posted by: hubs at July 10, 2003 12:08 PMbe brave...tell him how you feel
Posted by: wahini at July 10, 2003 01:22 PMJealousy is a bitch, but in my very limited expereince, it always means that I want more and not less.. more BLOOD, that is. :D
Posted by: tab at July 10, 2003 02:56 PM