October 24, 2003

why i will never be a novelist

I need structure. I am lost without it.

Which is why my closet is organized by color (ROYGBIV), and why the kitchen must be clean before I leave for work. It is why it's absolutely necessary for me to put my keys in the exact same spot every single day. (Recently, that spot has been hanging from the lock in the door where my roommate finds them when he comes home, but that is another matter entirely.) It is why there are color-coded sponges in the kitchen and bathroom, why I make lists of everything I must accomplish in a day and everything I must buy -- prioritized by importance and cost. It's like Monica Gellar on crack.

It is also why I feel lost, confused and unfocused when it comes to the idea of writing something more substantial than a web log.

Yesterday, as if joined by some unholy psychic connection, both Musical Stranger and Smart Ass Sibling began lobbying for production of a larger work. A book of short stories, a novel. The first conversation was not as surprising as the latter, as it followed the topic of conversation at the time. But the message from Smart Assed Sibling was so out of the blue, I was taken aback.

SAS: Me and Stina want you to write a book so we can design the cover.
H: You want to design a book cover?
SAS: No. YOUR book cover.
H: I can't write a book!
SAS: LIAR!!!
Mentioned conversation with Musical Stranger.
SAS: It's a sign!

Be it a sign or not, simply have no idea how to go about it. Sit down and write, am told. Just write. But! But! But! I need a schedule! I need a list! I need to know just what's expected of me all the time or the ADD will take over and I just might lose my mind and THEN where would we be? The Yellow Wallpaper has already been written! Do we need another memoir of a woman slowly going completely crazy? I'm defeated before I ever begin!

Perhaps it's time to learn to live outside of those lists. To discipline myself for something bigger and more meaningful. Just don't know if I can. If I do somehow come up with a story, the tenacity to see it through and the words to tell it, promise you'll buy my book? Promise??

Posted by This Fish at October 24, 2003 09:31 AM
Comments

Promise. And I hope I get to follow thru on that.

Posted by: keol at October 24, 2003 10:11 AM

promise.

Posted by: hubs at October 24, 2003 10:20 AM

Trust me -- just start writing, and keep writing. Let the story tell you what it's about.

"We are made to perisist. That is how we know who we really are." -Tobias Wolfe

So who you gonna' be?

;)

Posted by: Benjamin at October 24, 2003 10:38 AM

Here's a schedule . . .

http://www.nanowrimo.org/

My first novel will be terrible, but it will be done on December 1st.

Posted by: sly at October 24, 2003 10:41 AM

Or you could start with a list and see where it deviates. I bet Tolstoy used a list (for all those character names!)

Posted by: Katherine at October 24, 2003 11:06 AM

[puts hand over heart] I promise. It would be a great thing and totally worth it (the book as a purchase, I'm saying).

And there are schedules to writing - time schedules, anyway. Like the whole "write for an hour each day" or something. As for subjects and how to weave them together into the book itself, that I'm a little cloudy on. But if you need inspiration or random ideas, I'm a good random idea generator.

Posted by: Michael at October 24, 2003 11:18 AM

I second the nanowrimo.org thing. I may have picked the absolute worst year to do it (the boyfriend is in the process of becoming the ex, work is crazy, I have no money, and I'm 3,000 miles from home) but I want to be forced to write.

At the very least, maybe participating will get you spewing out words. One or two of them have to be usable, right?

Posted by: Anne at October 24, 2003 11:21 AM

it's funny that you mention the yellow wallpaper. just yesterday, i was thinking about that book. and i remember vividly her description of becoming one with the yellow wallpaper and the yellow roses. i read that book almost ten years ago.

Posted by: niurope at October 24, 2003 12:57 PM

Damn. I was totally going to suggest NaNoWriMo as well, but several people have already beaten me to it.

You should give it a shot. I am, and lord knows that I am no fiction writer. Who knows? The next great American novel has to come from SOMEWHERE, right? :)

Posted by: Meredith at October 24, 2003 01:02 PM

Put me in for two! One for me, and one for my mother, who always knows how to appreciate a superb book.

Posted by: Silvya at October 24, 2003 01:57 PM

Go for it Fish! I agree with the schedule idea. Just set some time aside and see where your pen takes you. I promise I'll buy whatever results.
: )

Posted by: Nicole at October 24, 2003 02:39 PM

Why not just make a book of lists? You've had enough practice...and half the work is done(ok barring all the stuff you crossed off)! Then you can have a series of spin off books "Lists you should have done yesterday", "The list of places I leave my keys", or "The list of ways to deal with Lisa without going to jail". You could have you're own section in the bookstore!

Posted by: DadLee at October 24, 2003 02:47 PM

"Just start to write" is the lamest advice I've ever heard. A plan of attack is the least that is called for. This being an advice-free zone, let me merely make a few suggestions, based on what I plan to do with my own project:

1. I have a plot in mind, and now I'm just thinking about the big picture and considering the best way to tell it.

2. I'm going to create a list of characters and write a whole lot about each one (even things that won't make it into print). Novel-writing isn't becoming someone else, it's stepping into their shoes for a while. I must know how they feel and smell first.

3. I'm going to write an outline of how the story will unfold. I'll keep it loose, because it will change as I go.

4. I'm going to stick a certain point of view. This and other technical things that most people don't realize makes a story readable.

5. I will only show it to people (in prepublication form) who aren't "fans" of mine, because then I know they'll be honest with me. I will also be prepared to write, rewrite and rewrite again. If I have a plan of attack and am focused on what's important, my revisions won't be so painful.

One last tidbit: I have a copy of "The Writer's Handbook" (1998 edition, sue me). It has excellent advice on starting novels, short stories, nonfiction books. Also has a number of markets that will buy good work. It says magazine writing can actually be more lucrative because there are more opportunites for becoming published.

Good luck, Fish! I would probably buy your book ... if it's good.

Posted by: Texas T-bone at October 24, 2003 03:52 PM

Tex: Call it lame if you want, but, I did just as I was advised. I sat down, started writing (with no plan in my head) and now have 3,500 words hacked out. In one boring afternoon at work.

So far, it's been pretty solid advice.

Posted by: Fish at October 24, 2003 03:55 PM

Organized by color (ROYGBIV) ? :-0

Posted by: Steve at October 24, 2003 05:02 PM

My clothes are organized by dirt — hangar, shelf, floor of closet, floor of bedroom, floor of laundry room.

Posted by: Gopi at October 24, 2003 05:36 PM

All hail Roy G. Biv.

You might want to try national novel writing month.

Posted by: Frankenstein at October 24, 2003 06:25 PM

and I just thought of something! If you publish you'll have to sign it Fish Bicycle or tell us your name, otherwise how are we to find it!!! I promise to buy it too. I love your word voice.

Posted by: Katherine at October 24, 2003 10:16 PM

Although The Yellow Wallpaper is a great story, I'm sure you could out-do it a hundred-fold. ..not because you'll go crazy, but because it will be great!

And yes, I'll certainly buy your book.

Posted by: tab at October 24, 2003 10:35 PM

Who says you have to write a novel with a beginning, middle, end and actual plot? Have you read "Idiot Girl's Action Adventure Club"? It's pretty much just little random things that have happened in the author's life. And it is the funniest thing I've ever read. It's written much like a weblog, only she gets royalties!

Posted by: Mandy at October 25, 2003 02:16 AM

Put me on pre-order list.

Posted by: browniethoughts at October 25, 2003 08:33 AM

Hey T-Bone (T-Bone?), blow me. Last I heard, 'Just start writing' (AT LEAST QUOTE ME CORRECTLY) seems to be working for Our Little Fish. She's writing. You're planning. And self-promoting.

One can talk (or blog), or one can actually do something. I'm for moving things forward, making things, trusting intuition -- and editing later. I sagely encouraged Fish to do the same. She is. She rocks.

Posted by: Benjamin at October 25, 2003 08:54 AM

Like a shot!

Posted by: Lisa at October 25, 2003 05:43 PM

P.S. I think you should drop the word "never" from your vocabulary. What you say is what you are, so long as you actions make it so.

Posted by: Benjamin at October 25, 2003 06:38 PM

yes, i promise.

Posted by: yaz pistachio at October 26, 2003 06:00 PM

hey Fish i know it was a no advice zone here but you know, i think Texas has a point. writing the first 5,000 words or even 10,000 words never is a problem for people who really want to write - it's finishing the NEXT 90,000 words that kills most people off...and for that, i think a plan probably is necessary AS you write...

if you publish, please please do tell us! will buy!

Posted by: j-a at October 26, 2003 11:41 PM

My point is, writing is less about the writer and more about the story. There are millions of great writers out there who produce a bunch of words for their own sakes. It doesn't make for great writing.

Hey, if sitting down to write without some sort of plan, research, character development works, super! For me, I just don't have that much time to waste.

It's silly to me, and also a waste of my time, when people consider light suggestions as criticism or party pooping. Just trying to help. Sheesh.

Posted by: Texas T-bone at October 27, 2003 10:47 AM

Oh, and just for Benjamin: "never" is when you'll have something to write that I'll want to read.

Posted by: Texas T-bone at October 27, 2003 10:49 AM

There are 100,000 words in a novel? Damn, there goes any plan I would ever have of writing one. :)

Posted by: Michael at October 27, 2003 11:32 AM

Yo T, the "never" was for Fish. 'Lil power of positive thinking for her. But I'm the oft-linked, oft-quoted Musical Stanger, and your stuck in the comment zone. So whatever. I'll write for major publications, you blog, and plan. (Insert maniacal laugh here.)

;), Benjamin

Posted by: Benjamin at October 27, 2003 11:34 AM

Yes, B. "Blow Me" is a geniously executed literary device. You're so full of yourself, it's a shame you're not limber to satisfy your own little needs. Touting your own "writing" isn't self-promotion, though, is it? Your own words help bury you as every word is another pile of dirt on your head.

Anything worth writing is worth doing at least mostly right the first time. That means forethought, planning and plotting. This isn't the only way (or even "my" way), it's the proven way. National Novel Writing Month is a neat project, but it rarely produces anything useable, even in heavily edited form. Going about it that way is often destined to produce nothing of value. Let's be realistic, Musical Stranger. Your "writing" isn't worth the paper it's printed on. Mine will be.

Posted by: Texas T-bone at October 27, 2003 12:00 PM

Boys!
Tex, if this is going to turn into a penis swordfight, could you take it outside?

Posted by: Fish at October 27, 2003 12:12 PM

You win. I'm sad.

:(

Posted by: Benjamin at October 27, 2003 12:14 PM

Not worth taking outside.

Posted by: Texas T-bone at October 27, 2003 12:18 PM