I've flipped open my phone three, maybe four times now, to return the missed call, only to flip it closed again.
Some days, this is what I readily admit to as being stubborn. Some days it is cagey. But right now, it's simple indecision.
Stubborn was yesterday when his last email said, "Give me a buzz" and I thought, no, YOU give ME a buzz. I didn't buzz. And, well, neither did he.
Flip open. Flip closed.
Stubborn was when I kept my phone on the table of that diviest of dive bars last night, drinking tequila sunrises and thinking, give me a buzz. I didn't buzz. And neither did he.
Until 1:24 AM.
Flip open.
If I were being cagey (which I'm not!), it might be because I don't know what I'm doing. And in such a case it's easier to do nothing at all. Right? Of course right.
Flip closed.
But since I'm just being indecisive, I might just not know what to say when I do call him back.
Hi. Yeah, no. Just really busy. Went out with friends last night.
Hi. Were you drunk-dialing me at 1:24 in the morning?
Hi, sorry I'm so short-bus about all this. Still wanna get together?
Whatever. Something like that. I'll just wing it.
Flip open.
"Hi," I say to his voicemail. "It's me. I, um..." Gah! This is going very well. Perhaps I should stick with cagey and stubborn. "Give me a buzz."
Flip closed.
I love that you used "Short-bus" as an adjective...
Posted by: Steve at February 21, 2004 02:31 PMyou are so much better then a guy that calls at 1:24am. a 1:24am 'buzz' shows all the signs of an outta line, disrespectful, future heartbreaker
Posted by: sazz at February 21, 2004 02:43 PMMmmmmm. Tequila Sunrises.
Posted by: Frankenstein at February 21, 2004 07:31 PMsee, now that wasn't so hard was it?
Posted by: hubs at February 23, 2004 02:52 PMThe "short bus" line was quite awesome and I would have used that one. But your human awkwardness is what makes you so wonderful and the reason everyone identifies with you.
Posted by: Michael at February 24, 2004 03:44 PM