October 05, 2004

paused

I wish the world stop for just a minute. I need a pause button. Or maybe even TIVO for real life. I don't have a television, much less TIVO, but I'm told that's how it works. From what I understand, you can pause real time broadcasts if you get distracted, and when you're ready, you can go back to where you left off. I'd say something here about space time continuum, but I understand even less about that.

What I understand least of all, right now, is my own microcosm.

I don't recall eating yesterday. But I'm sure I must have, because I don't feel hungry. I don't recall putting on deodorant or brushing my teeth this morning. I guess I did, though. Routine is good for the times when you're not up to thinking.

I didn't pick up the mail. That I know. I put the Brita back empty --two days ago. My towel is on the bathroom floor. The light bulb over the couch is burnt out. I only fed the cat because he won't let me get away with forgetting. Maybe I need TIVO for the cat.

Posted by This Fish at October 5, 2004 10:19 AM
Comments

Oh, TIVO for the kitty litter would be a dream!

Posted by: Brooks at October 5, 2004 11:05 AM

maybe you are on TIVO and the cat fastforwarded you to feeding time. several days in a row.

Posted by: Theresa at October 5, 2004 11:14 AM

And here I am, trying to find a routine.

Maybe not?

Posted by: Derek at October 5, 2004 11:57 AM

I have had days like that. Even weeks. But I am glad they don't come along too often, because it really sucks when you only remember to put deodorant on under one arm.

Posted by: Carrie at October 5, 2004 12:33 PM

apparently my alternate universe has come to reside with you. Yesterday, I finally changed the cat litter, bought cat food, washed some clothes and emptied the dishwasher. Today -- unearthing myself from the pile known as BILLS.

I feel your pain fish, i really do.

Posted by: akaellen at October 5, 2004 01:15 PM

I came off a band tour one time, woke up the next morning in my own bed and tried to open the nonexistent back door of the nonexistent van and find a nonexistent tree to pee behind.

No harm done, but it was a close thing.

Posted by: Lex at October 5, 2004 02:09 PM

Sadly, that's happened to me so often I keep an extra deo and toothbrush/paste at work. And floss.

TIVO - you can also ZIP through commercials like you didn't even know they were there = the yucky things in life. Like bad hair days, zit days, fat days. I like that idea!

Posted by: GrumpyBunny at October 5, 2004 03:46 PM

Gorgeous blog, Fish! I'm adding you to my peeps.

Posted by: UV at October 5, 2004 06:14 PM

Fast-forward my sorry self from 9 to 5, please!

Posted by: Robert at October 5, 2004 07:32 PM

I've had years like that. Going through the entire time thinking that you need a vacation; but it's not time off that you need, it's time IN. The hard part is pulling your brain out of its autopilot; finding a way to realise that the time that's passing right NOW is worth paying attention to. Good luck finding a way to do that. If you do, let me in on the secret.

Posted by: Jason at October 5, 2004 11:28 PM

I think you could write a very good movie about this.

But I'm really sorry. Although, maybe it's best you don't remember. Or something. I don't know. I just wish you were happy. I love you happy (although I'll definitely take you sad, too)!!

Posted by: DeAnn at October 6, 2004 04:25 AM