November 03, 2004

the lost weekend (by benjamin wagner)

It was spontaneous. And naughty. Which made it seem like a pretty good idea at the time.

The sky was white outside my window. The streets below were strewn with grayed snow. I was cold. And I was alone. We were IMing...

MTVITAMIN: Meet me in Old Saybrook.
HLH: Ok.

Done and done.

Two thoughts ran through my head on the train north: 1) 'I can't believe I'm doing this' and 2) 'I hope she answers the door in fishnets.'

I was dating someone else. And Heather knew it. It was the elephant in the room. Not that we noticed. We were otherwise preoccupied...

You remember the post. Heck, I do. It was pretty steamy, pretty cute, and pretty vague. Which is basically what went down up there in Old Saybrook. Steamy, cute, and vague. And because she's not here to set limits, that's all you get.

Except. Except that it felt awkward. And exhilerating. And wrong. And good.

It was kinda' messed up.

It's weird. My best and most trusted friend was in town for a wedding that weekend staying at my apartment. I was trying to get back to New York to hang out with him -- it was Super Bowl Sunday or something. When I told him what I'd been up to, he rolled his eyes and laughed. And I'm pretty sure he wasn't laughing with me.

If I didn't know it would all turn out ok in the end, I'd swear it was a pretty stupid thing to do, sneak away for a weekend trist with an Internet Starlette. While I was dating someone else.

But I do love an adventure. And I do love breakfast in bed.


Tomorrow: Fish Moves In

Posted by at November 3, 2004 09:23 AM
Comments

OMG! I knew it!
I love all this tellin', too. How nosy am I?!

Posted by: Sara at November 3, 2004 09:43 AM

May I ask...how long ago was this? I don't know either of you so I'm fascinated that you're still friends because that, well, that almost never happens. Very interesting. Anyway, I'm in Houston and I bought your cd yesterday after discovering you on this website. I'm looking forward to hearing it.

Posted by: katie at November 3, 2004 11:34 AM

ah, yes... i remember fish's tale of that weekend! very interesting to see your p.o.v. thanks for the awesome posts in h's absence!

Posted by: sassylittlepunkin at November 3, 2004 11:56 AM

Isn't it wonderful how life sometimes just Happens (caps deliberate) like that? There's a wondrous amount of discovery in the chaos of everyday life. I can't imagine it would be anywhere near as much fun if it were more predictable.

Thanks for sharing. This blog is an unbelievably great read.

Posted by: Carmi at November 3, 2004 07:13 PM

This is last winter.

Posted by: Benjamin at November 4, 2004 12:23 PM

Somehow the fact that he was involved with some one else takes the romance out of it for me.... ew....just ew. Still, I agree, great read.

Posted by: Stacy at November 4, 2004 04:54 PM

Perhaps it was less about romance than it was about satisfying some curiosity... which we satisfied several other times after that.... HAH. oh, the things we learn.

Posted by: Moroccan Fish at November 4, 2004 05:55 PM