I would rather talk to you than anyone else I know.
You and I are not on speaking terms, despite what you may think. I do not think of you often, and when I do, it is not to wish you well.
I’m sorry I was so horrible to you when we were kids. I didn’t understand.
I can’t fix everything, but for you, I will always try. Even when it makes me crazy.
I love you for your brain. I mean, really love you.
Just freaking cut your hair, damn it. You look like a degenerate.
Stop. Smoking. The idea of going to your funeral one day makes me feel queasy.
You have always been easy to love. It was liking you that sometimes took effort.
I hate that you’re the cute one. There. I said it.
Sometimes, you smother me.
It bothers me that I always have to ask other people how you are. Just call, already.
I feel unintelligent around you; you think I’m shy, but I’m afraid of being judged.
You’re a total douchebag and I call bullshit! on that story about your dead grandfather’s hat.
I’m still just the tiniest bit mad that you let me think I lost that ring.
Seriously? Best. Ever.
More to come. Once I feel satisfied with this list, I’m buying a ticket to Prague. May sounds like a nice month.
Good for you- now you can be done with those and move on to planning your trip!
I think you’ve inspired me to create my own.
good on you fish. nice post and great plans for Prague.
Get on with your BADASS self!!!! You rock! I love your list…mwahhahahaha
This is fascinating! Makes me want to do it myself. Very cool. I like this and your previous post very, very much.
Diane
Prague is amazing, I accidentally went last year (invited on someone else’s trip) You MUST go…and before 2010, they switch to euro then, and it’s already getting pricey…there I said it!
That’s amazing and I can respect the soul-searching and gut-wrenching honesty that went into it…
…but you’re actually going to say those things to those people for real, right? Before you go to Prague…?
otherwise this is nothing but a lovely creative writing exercise.
“I feel unintelligent around you; you think I’m shy, but I’m afraid of being judged.”
ditto
I love it. Just like a pot luck dinner, a little something for everyone.
Coming from someone who just picked up and left for Europe for a month last year by themselves it was THE BEST thing I ever did for myself – DO IT!
Um, May is not a good month for you to go to Prague.
May is baby month.
How many times do I have to tell you that you need to plan your life around ME??!!!
Gah! I keep forgetting we’re having a baby in May. This partial ownership of a child thing is really going to put a crimp in my social life.
I’m still scared to do something like this bc I don’t want people to incorrectly assume something is about them and then be angry.
You are so…….. articulate! Why was I not that way at your age?
I’m sorry about the ring. It had been my most prized possession and I felt you had been careless with it and I didn’t react well to finding it on the floor. A couple years ago, someone stole it. I haven’t gotten over it.
Too many college students on summer break in May. Go in August or September.
Yay! Good on you! Now I have to do my own list! Prague, here you come.
I’ve done that exercise before and I found it very therapeutic.
Good for you on your upcoming trip!
Good list. There are things on there that I have not said to people that maybe someday I will say. Or not. Especially, “You and I are not on speaking terms, despite what you may think. I do not think of you often, and when I do, it is not to wish you well.” Fortunately, putting it into words (or – even better – using yours!!) helps. Thanks.
Thanks fish. You’ve inspired me to write my own list. Have fun in Prague
LOVE. IT. Must do one of my own.
Glad you did it. That’s quite excellent. I wish you good things, as you are an example to many. May you prosper and continue to lead and to teach.
You have very similar things too get-off-your-chest as I do! Last week I sent this email to a recent ex-boyfriend. I was very serious and I ended up not taking myself seriously – sound familiar?
EMAIL: “I am sometimes overcome by a deep desire to kick your ass. One just poured over me. And then I remember that you know how to use a chain saw – protective-wear and all and I know deep down that I don’t stand a chance. Damn, that’s a ****ty realization. But I can jump further.” (Then I attached a pic of me in mid-jump at the how-far-can-you-jump thing at the Brooklyn Zoo). I felt better.
Lived in Prague for a summer – it was incredible. I know you will love it!
Definitely doing a list on my own.
Looks like it could do some good… to my brain…
i love it. I’m going to do up one of my own I think. it’ll be nice
I like some of them. And there isn’t anything wrong with not being on the best of terms with people….makes us human, which is divine!
Good for you! It’s a huge relief sometimes just to say those things outloud (or write them for all of your readers to see), even if not everyone who actually *needs* to see them actually does.
I really don’t think it counts if you don’t actually say these things directly to the people for whom they are intended.
So if I did my own list on my blog Pursuit of Strange (from which I send readers to you via a link), would you be offended?
Kudos to you for having the guts to let your mom read your blog. I haven’t even told my mother I HAVE a blog, let alone that I’ve had it for a year and a half. Or what it’s called. Or what I write about. ack. I need to go shower away my sins now.
I love the idea of a list. I don’t necessarily think honesty is the best policy all the time. I have written several letters to my mother, which I would never, ever send to her – but I needed to get those things out of my system.
It appears you will beat me to Prague. I’m super jealous, but applaud you and your voracious use of the word douchebag. Be sure to read Kafka, smoke black cigarettes and renounce the triune god.
There. Done. Meet you in Prague.
This is awesome! I’m so proud of you!
So about odd dreams…
Fish,
Last night I dreamed that I came to your house and cleaned your bathroom. That’s all. Didn’t hang out. Just cleaned your bathroom and left. Go figure.
You know you’re the cute one dumbass.
I’m too busy guessing who these are about to write my own.
You’ve inspired me to do my own, howver, have you heard of postsecret.com? You need to check that out. I’m doing my own postcard!! Sounds refreshing.
Even if it is bull****, the dead grandfather’s hat story intrigues me!
This is good. I run over these things in my mind on long drives…what I would’ve said and I what I would like to…I think I’ll post one as well.
This list makes me so happy! Good for you… I writing one of my own.
I love this. It’s got me thinking…
I love this idea! “I would rather talk to you than anyone else I know.”- sigh. I know that feeling. I just need to figure out how to actually say it….
Nice list. Prague is totally amazing in the spring!
now that’s inspired!
call it all you want…its true. i would, however, side with you on douchebag…
how are things?