death does not become her

I stood on the Lexington Express this morning gripping the cold metal pole and pleading with whoever is in charge of such things, not to let me faint.

I’d had my breakfast. I’d taken my vitamins. It’s just that this illness, whatever it is, has finally left my throat and now made a permanent settlement in my chest. And this morning, it began stealing the air supply from my brain.

Girl you’re every woman in the world to me…

No, not that Air Supply. I mean the one in charge of keeping me capable of cognitive reasoning and maintaining basic life functions. Like remaining vertical on a downtown train.

Ordinarily I would just buy myself something and I’d be all cured. But this seems a wee bit heartier of an illness. It’s got staying power. I mean, I’ll still try going to Bloomingdale’s at lunch to buy a much-needed pair of sunglasses, but I’m without much hope that it’s going to cure me.

My skin is flushed, my heart is racing, and not in a good way either. Have I mentioned my health insurance doesn’t kick in for another two full months?

Gah.

10 comments to death does not become her

  • In addition to Air Supply, your post also included the band names Heart, (the) Cure, and (the) Faint, as well as a few that would make decent band names (Cognitive Reasoning, Permanent Settlement, Such Things). And to top it off, you even included a song (Downtown Train).

    Here’s hoping you feel better soon.

  • Diseases seem to know when your health insurance isn’t in effect. This of course leads to the usual complaints of how insurance is always there when you don’t need it.

  • Ew. Hope you feel better! Did you try snuggle time in bed with KII? Maybe rumbling kitten purring can help you with that chest congestion.

  • 4 words – Comtrex Deep Chest Congestion. Works effing wonders, honey! Try it.

  • aie! sweetie, i’ll hold on to my 62 dollars so we can go get hammered when you’re feeling better. meanwhile, vitamin c! zinc! echinacea! tea! and lots and lots of sleeeeep.

    pobrecita! alas!

  • Fish,

    Here is some advice, get some short-term health insurance from an insurance agent. You can buy it for like 2 months and that way you won’t go without any. Sure it sounds like product pimping but it is cheap coverage. Email me if you want me to point you in the direction of someone I know in NYC.

    Hope you get to feeling better!

  • the Belle

    Fish,

    Are you sure you don’t have COBRA insurance coverage from your last job? Usually it lasts about a month. It might be worth calling your former HR person or whatever to find out.

    Hope you feel better soon!

  • Ari

    I’m all out of love, what am I without you

    Damn… earworm!

  • sounds just like being in love.

    funny, that.

  • Air Supply! Rock on!