July 23, 2002

this family tree has dutch elm disease

Am suddenly in middle of yet another personal crisis and must say, am quite tired of being part of genetically-assigned family. Father of said family, 'recovered' alcoholic of 30-some odd years, has apparently headed back to the bottle after discovery that wife of 25 years requests separation and indeed, "never loved him."

First inclination is to send aching message to J in search consolation of some sort. But am v. aware that J is on the frantic side of busy and would not be source of comfort that am seeking. Am disappointed even before attempt. Should give him more credit, maybe? Would love for him to say, "Hey, let's go for a ride. Take your mind off things for a bit" or to offer no more than really great J hug. Not likely to get either though, as he has band practice every night this week.

Find self foolishly wishing was set of drums.

Gal Pal wisely noted, "Really all you want is to fall into his very masculine arms.....however, if you were a set of drums....how would you accessorize?"
Am certain would find a way. Even as a drum. Have a knack for that sort of thing.

Have just received email from J. Dare answer with current state of affairs?

Posted by This Fish at July 23, 2002 04:21 PM
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