January 05, 2005

on air

I hate the sound of my own voice.

It’s foreign and irritating and… oh-so-very awkward. Don’t play me back the voicemail I left you – it’s going make me cringe and twitch and I won’t hear a damn thing except that I sound like a thirteen year old boy. I absolutely cannot bear the thought that people have to listen to that thirty second ‘Hi, It’s Heather. I’m not near my phone right now, please leave a message.”

Why are you people still friends with me after you hear that?!

But because life is just one Get Over Yourself experience after the next (that’s the sole reason bikini swimsuits were invented after all), I’ve been asked to be part of an international public radio documentary.

That's right. My voice. On the radio.

Tomorrow evening, I’m going to go into a recording studio, giggle nervously (thank the baby jesus you won’t be able to see me biting my lower lip and peeling frantically at my fingernail polish) as I stumble all over my not-fit-for-the-airwaves voice and talk about… dating. Another thing I’m just awesome at.

I have no doubt it will be nothing but wonderful. And if not? Well, the good thing with radio is, there are no hotlinks. Which cuts way down on the hate mail.

Posted by This Fish at January 5, 2005 01:21 PM
Comments

i don't think anyone really likes the sound of their own voice. i get told all of the time that i have such a lovely phone voice, and to me -- i sound like i cannot breathe through my nose.

i'm sure it will be great and you will be entertaining and funny - but telling you not to worry is like telling michael jackson he is black. :)

Posted by: red at January 5, 2005 01:24 PM

Ooh, I always think I sound good singing in the shower. It's the only place my voice shines.

I absolutely hate hearing myself on the little digital recorder I use at work. My internal transcript usually goes something like:
Muffled voice asking stupid question

Intellegent subject making sense out of muffled voice and stupid question with coherent answer.

And so forth.

By the way what station are we actually talking about here? Air date? Hopefully I can pick it up on my Sirius.

Promise, I'm not an internet voice stalker or anything.

Posted by: jimmy c. at January 5, 2005 01:49 PM

Good luck!

And I agree with the above poster who said no one likes the sound of their voice. I find mine to be high-pitched and overly cheerful. ick.

Posted by: Bond Girl at January 5, 2005 03:01 PM

I've done voiceovers for radio commercials and I still hate my voice; it's something you never get used to.

Posted by: Megan at January 5, 2005 03:21 PM

Ummm-
Once in early college, someone once told me I sounded like an animated mouse. I didn't think much of it at the time, but about two days later I realized he was telling me I sounded like Mickey Mouse and not only had I not defended myself, but I had nodded and thought nothing of it.
I had clearly been insulted twice, and the second time I was too oblivious to notice.

I've forgotten the name of the person who said this to me but I still see his stupid long, long, surfer long, brillo pad hair in my memory. I hope he never loses his hair. That is the worst thing I could wish on him.
M.

Posted by: Chelle in San Diego at January 5, 2005 03:24 PM

Peeling at your fingernail polish? What a terrible waste of a manicure! I demand you, I don't know, pick imaginary lint from yours and others sweaters. It's a little bit psycho, but then again, I've been getting away with it for years.

Posted by: deb at January 5, 2005 03:35 PM

You are so cool! Congrats on your new arena luv!

Posted by: Ari at January 5, 2005 03:38 PM

Yes, agreed - most people don't like the sound of their own voice.

With my recent cold (of a short term of 6 freekin' weeks...) - I leave a message for people at work EVERY morning. I know I sounded stuffed up because I was. But every morning without fail for 6 weeks, The Cheeto Queen had to call and see how I was doing, was I feeling better, and I possibly sounded like I was getter better...ugh.

Some of my bloggies have suggested a voice digitizer to throw her off the track.

Maybe you could use one tonight? Darth Vader giving dating tips. Could pull quite an audience.

Posted by: GrumpyBunny at January 5, 2005 04:21 PM

You MUST do a real-time internet broadcast. Cause then, like, we can hot link to your voice! And record it in digital format for all posterity!

Posted by: The other Fish at January 5, 2005 04:34 PM

yeah, nobody likes their own voice, or atleast i dont...my voice sounds fine to me in my hed, like any other normal joe, but then i hear it on the answering machine and it's all nasaly and deep and awkward...blech

how can we listen to your performance???

Posted by: amit at January 5, 2005 04:45 PM

I don't just abhor my own voice, but I also can't stand the way my face looks.

So I'm up one on ya.

Posted by: Robotnik at January 5, 2005 05:33 PM

Good luck, Fish! Other people have told me they like my voice, but it still sounds strange to me when I hear a recording. It never sounds the way that I hear it inside my own head, where I like it a lot better.

About this radio documentary: details, please! Who's making it? When/where can we hear it?

Posted by: Kimberly at January 5, 2005 09:11 PM

Yes, yes, thank Me so that our Fish does well. She'll get the email, I swear.

Posted by: Baby Jesus at January 5, 2005 10:55 PM

Your post reminded me of Edie Singleton, the one blogger who's specialty was discussing and analyzing and describing dating. She did this so well, it's a pity she's not blogging anymore.

Posted by: Katherine at January 5, 2005 10:56 PM

Lest we all feel that it's just self-loathing that makes us hate our own voice: when we speak, we hear our voice both in our ears and through the resonant bones in our skull. Our voices, when played back on tape, don't have the lower registers those bones add. So we always sound sort of squeaky to ourselves. I worked in radio for years and still perform - and though people say I have a smooth, deepish voice, I think I sound like a frigging Muppet on helium.

Posted by: Nils at January 6, 2005 12:35 AM

Oh I think some people love the sound of their own voices...they are the ones that just don't shut up...I on the otherhand always sound stuffed up and it isn't just me that thinks so...is there a surgery for that...I'm sure your radio thing will go well...wish we could hear it :)

Posted by: Rebecca at January 6, 2005 01:25 AM

Hope it went well, Fish. Gee, you're gettin' awfully famous. I'm sure we will be reading about it. Your readers are correct. No one likes the sound of his/her own foreign-sounding voice.

Posted by: Plantation at January 6, 2005 01:55 AM

I just wish I lived near so I could hear you. I'll bet you that you sound way better than you think you do and I love reading what you have to say, so good luck to you.

Posted by: Lisa at January 6, 2005 09:31 AM

Dude? Details?

And BTW, I think we all sound different in our own heads than we do to other people. It's one of those things I can't prove scientifically, but just feel that it's intrinsically true.

Posted by: Esther at January 6, 2005 12:12 PM

Further to Nils' comment:

Part of what you're hearing as you speak is an internal/mental sound. The voice you hear when you silently talk to yourself. This also colours how you perceive your own voice. Pianist Glenn Gould used to hum, loudly and out of tune, to drown out the actual sound of his piano. He prefered the mental image of what he was playing and I suspect this happens to some people with their speaking voice.

Also, the place people most often hear themselves is on answering machines. Devices like that only record and play back a very narrow range of the audio spectrum. You literally don't sound like that.

Posted by: Coelecanth at January 6, 2005 12:31 PM

sorry if i'm repeating this question:

will the broadcast be avail on the net??

Posted by: bikefox at January 6, 2005 02:10 PM

You'll do fine - really. The waiting is worse than the actual doing, and once it's over, you'll be fine. You may hate it and vow never to do it again, or you may become addicted and carry a mini-tape recorder so that you can dictate "memos to self", but either way, you'll do very well. Trust me. :)

Posted by: lawyerchik1 at January 6, 2005 05:29 PM

You'll do fine - really. The waiting is worse than the actual doing, and once it's over, you'll be fine. You may hate it and vow never to do it again, or you may become addicted and carry a mini-tape recorder so that you can dictate "memos to self", but either way, you'll do very well. Trust me. :)

Posted by: lawyerchik1 at January 6, 2005 05:29 PM

I hear from a lot of my blogger friends that they actually get hatemail!! Thats nuts! Maybe I just dont have enough people reading my site yet hahhaa But that would be funny to get hatemail !!

Well anyways..good luck with the radio spot!! Hope you enjoy! By the way..whats so "foreign" about your voice? Do you have an accent or something? If so...thats a good thing!!!

Posted by: climacool at January 7, 2005 12:30 AM

ooooh ooooh oooh I so feel your pain.
About 10 years ago I also had to go on air... and discuss being fat in a thin world.
So then not only did I have the social embarrasment of stuttering on air, but the knowledge that now everyone knew I was fat too.

Posted by: bouncegrrrl at January 7, 2005 04:15 PM

Hmm. I never get hate mail. But then, I think I have about five people who read my blog, and I know four of them.

As for my voice, I've been told several times I have a good phone voice. Whatever that is.

Good luck. Too bad Chi-town's too far away from NY to hear you.

Posted by: gregz at January 7, 2005 07:10 PM