Will be seeing J for dinner tomorrow night...shamefully, at my invite. All reason says to abandon J Project and spend time on other, more worth-while pursuits (field hockey, quilting, or aquisition of miscellaneous body piercings). However, emotion and reason being two v. different things, simply cannot be helped. Also cannot be helped that am still quite in love with said Project.
J does not NOT want me (has been established quite beyond doubt), yet clearly does not want yours truly exactly enough to make needed adjustments. Am turning out to be v. sad story. Pathetic.
Would be quite another thing if J would simply say, "I don't want you." Then could cry for a good long (v. long) time and never date again. What would be the point?
Can tell am facing another birthday.