Am certain am just being paranoid, but am having strange separation from logical side of self at moment. Not only did J fail to call on Saturday regarding potential going-out-and-drinking plans as promised, but when yours truly called (why not? if are friends, is perfectly legit to call, no?) got voicemail. And not only did yours truly get voicemail (J rarely does NOT answer his phone), but message has thus far gone unreturned.
What gives?
Have spent morning wandering house, making lame attempts at putting up holiday decor and succeeding wildly at finishing off last night's pint of ice cream.
One way ticket to Fatsville. All aboard.
Why-oh-why-oh-why? Ok, not why did I sleep with J. Neither J nor myself were intoxicated. Sure, yours truly had downed half a bottle of wine hours earlier, but for the most part the let's get busy decision was made fully based in reality. Thought to self, Self, is absolutely impossible to be MORE attached to v. nice smelling bicycle, so why not? Thus, question in fishy head has nothing to do with own behavior, but that of J. Current disappearing act is so horridly reminiscent of the v. uncertain dating days. Am inclined to risk complete alienation and call again to let Mr. Unsteady know that if he plans on destroying what have built up over MONTHS because of what happened over four hours, is one v. big coward.
Am out of ice cream.